I feel awkward talking about things I did bad-
lying and scheming and being the
kinda person when I wa[e]nted to be a
kinda[er] person: not childish in German
sense but gentle-
[r] in English.
And I live and breathe the language I write
and speak and kiss with my lips
your tongue and song of life and simple
sense: yes, in your pre-
senses everything is bigger: grander,
finer, willing itself so [wonder-
sum} of your parts – in my heart and
tarry less by now: oh how this con-
fuses my body untrue.